I am not afraid.
[ Crappy ]CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Without a Trace - the GazettE
Great. I feel like crap and I don't know why.
It was probably just PMS, or some weird stuff going in and out of my head but lately I've been feeling kind of...restless. Like, something's bound to go out of my way. And I think I know what it would be, though I still refuse to think about it. And it's just...driving me crazy.
*sighs*
Pretty much, I didn't attend summer classes earlier too. Despite me not feeling so well, I also kind of assumed that the weather will be as sucky as it was yesterday but it had been bright and shining since I woke up so...I guess that's another reason to feel all guilty and shitty.
Ahh, I can't think straight. *pulls hair*
I'm craving for food I can't have, I want to go out but practically have nowhere to go to, I'm frustrated beyond belief and I dont know why, I'm tired and feeling sick and emotional and I'm bored out of my mind and...emfnwhfcjhsdcnd!
Or maybe I do know what's wrong. I do know what I want and the fact that I know I can't have it (or at least, not for very long)is pushing me off the edge and putting me in this state of denial. I don't want to be in denial. I want to fucking accept it, but I can't. I'm just...not ready.
I never thought it's possible to feel this empty.
ラベル: shit happens, this is srs bsns
