CURRENT MOOD: [ Bitchy >____>;)
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: DISCHARGE - the GazettE

Just some few, random things before I go up to Rachel's place and celebrate her birthday since it doesn't start till about 13:30. I have...*swips out watch* three more hours.

And I don't even know why I bothered saying that when clearly I have more than enough time. o____O;

- 15 days till my birthday! ^0^ Now, I'm not really the type who throws parties nor even expect gifts from people on my special day because clearly, I dont find it too...special, per se. True, it makes me a year older. True, the sun has circled around me yet again which people find exponentially important. True, my friends are pretty much waiting for me to stuff them till I can't possibly stuff them anymore (I mean, with food. And okay, that sounded soo weird and nasty but you get the idea. *nods nods*) so pretty much I'm not planning anything special. I never did.

But coincidentally, we have this classmate (he's a wee bit older, and already has a career so pretty much he's...capable, if you know what I mean) who said that he'll be throwing a pool party at his house on the 21st, since he won the PsychSociety election. And 21st is the eve of my birthday which is at the 22nd (Oh god, duh.) so pretty much we've come to the agreement that we'll just merge the celebration. Saves us some money, and saves me from being pestered by my classmates the next day, which is a good thing! ^^;

I'm quite nervous though, since like I said, I've never really done this before. Surely, Christopher might just ask me to buy us some drinks since he said he'll provide us with food but that's not even the case. I know this might sound a wee bit lonely but I've always been alone on my birthday. *smiles bitterly* Hahaha! Like, dad's most probably at work and so as my sister and brother, and I don't really go out with friends so pretty much I spend my day fiddling all over my room and cleaning the whole house. And...I don't know. Hahaha! I don't even know why I'm so nervous. ;>>A<<;

But hey, we'll see what happens. *shrugs*

- This might not be share-worthy, and I don't really want to jump into conclusions about this having some sort of meaning or anything but lately, I've been having...black outs. Yes, blackouts. Wait, I'm not really sure if it can be considered as black outs. o____O; All I know is that there were days where I can't even remember what I did and how I did things. Taken for instance, a week ago I was working on an experiment for my Experimental Psych laboratory subject and I remember chatting with Rachel as I did it, but I don't remember how I finished it since I've been complaining about a headache that night. So I logged off early, went to bed and when I woke up I remembered NOT finishing the experiment so I rushed to text Rachel and told her to wait for me till I finish it. But she just laughed at me and told me I already finished it, sent it to her and well, pretty much it's all set and ready.

I was...confused, because I totally remember not finishing it, same as me not remembering that I already finished it. Does it make sense? I mean, I know it might just be some case of forgetfulness but it's just...I don't know. And this isn't the only time it happened. It's like I'm on autopilot on something while my brain freakin' shuts down and my body does things that I do on a normal basis. BUT I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING. DDDD8

Rachel said maybe I should ask my professors, or go to the Psych department and have it checked but I don't think it's necessary. Well, at least not till I start killing people without me remembering/knowing. Now, that would be worrisome. =/

- Jun finally approached me. Yes, Jun. Jun my old friend. She left a comment on the latest chapter of 'Dirge in the Beauty', saying she had finished her update and is just waiting for her beta-reader to send it back to her so she can post. I didn't respond at first, seeing as I don't really know what to say. A part of me was glad that she finally stooped down her stupid pride and came to talk to me. Although I know exactly why she's trying to come back to me now that Chuu had dumped her. Or it seemed like she had dumped her because Chuu is on my friends list at Facebook and she would always ramble about her "husband" for whom she really loves, which gave me the notion that they've broken up.

A part of me still doubts her. What is her intention, exactly? Has she matured enough for me to let her back into my life? Or is she just trying to reunite with me so she could go on and treat me like a rubbish bin like she used to? Oh I bet the first thing she'll ramble about would be how she and Chuu broke up, how she broke her heart, how she hated her and the world now blah blah blah and I just...I don't know. I can still write that next chapter, I know I can but generally, I don't think it's still healthy for her and I to do something together, seeing as how she reacted with issues the last time and I just don't want to go through it again, you know?

Apparently, Nadine had been commenting on that same chapter too, trying to make it up to me, I bet. She's acting like she've matured, or so I thought she did that's why I casually commented back since I don't really have any plans of letting her back into my life ever. But something still tells me she hasn't, or perhaps it's just this voice within me that doesn't give out second chances.

I stopped commenting back after a while, since I dont really see the purpose of it anymore. *shrugs*

AND I GUESS THAT'S IT.
Lol sorry if it's quite long and draggy. I don't think anyone will actually read this anyway but the hell. *shrugs* I was thinking of adding the memechirorichan tagged me with some days ago but this entry's been long enough. And I'm still working on that other meme star_jrock tagged me with, but I can't find pictures of Ruki half-nekkid! DDDD8 (much to my dismay, I say) but I just might post it later as well. ^^

ラベル: happy birsday greetings, harhar, shit happens, skewwwl, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Crazy, ehh? Like that's changed. LOL ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: OGRE - the GazettE


Goodmorning, bbs. ♥
I've come to notice that I haven't told you guys about what happened at my friend Carmela's birthday party, yes? Well, the event itself isn't very...eventful, but what we all went through just by going to the party is pretty much an interesting, new experience, per se.

To cut the plausibly long ass, tragic story short; it was a chain of seemingly unending unfortunate events. First, we were dismissed earlier on the seminar, which supposedly is a good thing but at the same time, it made us all agree into the idea of going to my other friend Emiline's house to doll up, which is pretty much the root of all them tragic events that occurred that day.

We were dismissed at two in the afternoon, went to Em's house, prepped for the party till five then it started raining. It was faintly a drizzle at first, something we didn't really consider threatening but after a few more minutes it started to pour down really hard. And since we all have our own umbrellas anyway (well, maybe except for miss careless right here. *points*) we still didn't quite see it bothering. But apparently, and very obviously, we were wrong.

When we got out of Em's house, it was pouring down even harder, which kinda made us all pouty because some of us, if not all, were wearing heels which would be totally ruined because of the rain. But Emiline promised us she'll get us a tricycle so it wasn't really a big deal now, was it?

So we waited for that tricycle she promised, most of us getting impatient after a few more minutes till this one tricycle driver went up to us and said that the tricycle that was supposed to fetch us from Em's house couldn't pass through anymore because of the flood. Yes, flood. Leg-freakin' high of dirty ass water from ditches and drainage and sewage filling the roads. We were all on the verge of tearing up because we practically wasted 4 hours over make-up and hair, only to find out that we wont be able to attend the party at all. But seriously, it gets better.

And no, I haven't even got to the best part. Not even close.
Emiline, feeling remotely responsible, assured us that she'll get someone to fetch us still and that there's still a way out of it. Perplexed, but we trusted her anyways because we can't really do anything about it. But what I didn't know is that the thing she said that was going to fetch us will be a cart. Yes, a cart slash motorcycle with no roofs, no seats and to be able to ride it you're gonna have to hop in and stand all throughout the drive.

So we weren't left with any choice and hopped in, first it was me and Ivy, and motherfuckingshit, I've never experienced something that disastrous in my eighteen years of existence. We were standing all throughout the ride, drenched in the rain with no hands to hold up an umbrella for us because we're pretty much using them to hold ourselves still as the cart moves/shakes/stumbles. We were on the verge of bawling our eyes our, while laughing hysterically and letting out occasional "ahh!"'s and "waaah!"'s.

I seriously thought like I was going to die. ;____;
Good thing though when it was all over, we were rewarded with amazing food from the party. Carmela was laughing at us because we came there drenched and haggard but hey, at least we came. xDDDDD

Seriously, just recalling the events makes me want to fucking slit someone's throat. Ughhhhh. DDDDD8

Anyways, on a much lighter note; I ADOPTED URUHAAAAA!!! 8DDDD

Okay, not literally, but there's this website called Squiby.net wherein you can adopt eggs and eventually they'll...err, grow. You'll have to click them once a day and each click corresponds to one point/level, and certain stages of its growth requires points to be attained. For instance, to be able to have a full grown Uruha, I'm gonna need to reach Level 151.

So for now, here he is.

Click Me!
Adopted from squiby
I named him Shima-chan because he's technically a chibi!Uru. Isn't that the cutest thing? xDDDDD

And I guess this update's been long enough. I should be preparing for school now, something I'm not really excited about. (>__>;) However, I'm pretty excited about doing groceries this afternoon. I've been wanting to make Chicken and Pork teriyaki but I just havent found time. Till now, that is.

See you later, guysss. ♥ ♥ ♥

ラベル: fuckery fuck fuck, shit happens, skewwwl, this is srs bsns, uruduckie♥, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Amused ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Mind cry - TOKAMI

ALAS, EXAMINATION WEEK'S OVARRR.

...Actually, waayyy over. But for some reason the atmosphere's still there since it had been a busy week for me. Reports here and there, ambush presentations and experimental psych paperworks. A friend once told me that hearing the term 'experimental psych' sounds like a pain in the butthole already but lucky for her that her butthole will pretty much stay intact because she's not taking the course. Now, imagine my butth--

Okay, that's gross. Why am I even talking about buttholes? o____O;

Something bittersweet happened concerning school this week though. Bitter, in the sense that our research topic was disapproved. True, it happens all the time but not when we're almost done with a chapter and we're just wrapping it all up. Our professor approached us and said that after a few weeks of musing (it bugs me that took her ages to tell us this.) she arrived at a conclusion that our topic isn't as related to Psychology as we cared to admit. Our topic was Finger Math, which pretty much screams retention and memory and mental set and cognitive psychology, to name a few, and yet the bitch's not even close to satisfied.

I was raging, because she clearly had no idea how hard we've worked on it. Infact, we're almost done with the second chapter and it was natural for case studies to be rejected, yes, but she should've told us way before we started frying our brains over it. Good thing though, she had the decency to extend our due date for the submission, which is a good thing but then again, just when I thought I already got my way out of the stress of doing the first chapter, I was wrong. Now, we're back to square one. *criezzz*

Let's get on the good news now; I GOT THIS REALLY HIGH SCORE IN EXPERIMENTAL PSYCH FOR OUR MAJOR EXAM HAH BLOODY HAH!

I seriously didn't expect it because I don't remember lifting my book and reviewing at all. Okay, maybe I did but I just skimmed through it like I always do, 20 minutes before the actual exam, with gaze's loudest shits blaring through my eardrums. I was surprised. Either I could review better with time pressure and distraction, or I'm just really, really smart. Hahahhaa!

Hopefully this goes on till Finals because I know it'll get alot harder by then. *nods*
And maybe you're asking "Aunt Gracie, how can you even get through everything without losing your mind?"

The answer,kiddos, is shopping. ♥
Andddd...pimping Sebby! xDDDD
Ain't he pretty? LOL I bought that swaroski phonecharm for eighty pesos. Err, more or less two dollars. It's really cute. xDDDDDDD

And oh, since I've been talking about Sebastian a whole lot lately, I might as well give him his own tag. Ahh, maybe Lilith too. She might get jealous. DDD8

And I guess that's it~
Now I shall go and stalk all them journals because I believe I missed quite alot of entries. ;>>>A<<<;

バイバイ！

ラベル: being a happy twat, camwhoring, hah bloody hah, i am that materialistic, sebbyyyy♥, skewwwl, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Bitchy >____>;)
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: DISCHARGE - the GazettE

Just some few, random things before I go up to Rachel's place and celebrate her birthday since it doesn't start till about 13:30. I have...*swips out watch* three more hours.

And I don't even know why I bothered saying that when clearly I have more than enough time. o____O;

- 15 days till my birthday! ^0^ Now, I'm not really the type who throws parties nor even expect gifts from people on my special day because clearly, I dont find it too...special, per se. True, it makes me a year older. True, the sun has circled around me yet again which people find exponentially important. True, my friends are pretty much waiting for me to stuff them till I can't possibly stuff them anymore (I mean, with food. And okay, that sounded soo weird and nasty but you get the idea. *nods nods*) so pretty much I'm not planning anything special. I never did.

But coincidentally, we have this classmate (he's a wee bit older, and already has a career so pretty much he's...capable, if you know what I mean) who said that he'll be throwing a pool party at his house on the 21st, since he won the PsychSociety election. And 21st is the eve of my birthday which is at the 22nd (Oh god, duh.) so pretty much we've come to the agreement that we'll just merge the celebration. Saves us some money, and saves me from being pestered by my classmates the next day, which is a good thing! ^^;

I'm quite nervous though, since like I said, I've never really done this before. Surely, Christopher might just ask me to buy us some drinks since he said he'll provide us with food but that's not even the case. I know this might sound a wee bit lonely but I've always been alone on my birthday. *smiles bitterly* Hahaha! Like, dad's most probably at work and so as my sister and brother, and I don't really go out with friends so pretty much I spend my day fiddling all over my room and cleaning the whole house. And...I don't know. Hahaha! I don't even know why I'm so nervous. ;>>A<<;

But hey, we'll see what happens. *shrugs*

- This might not be share-worthy, and I don't really want to jump into conclusions about this having some sort of meaning or anything but lately, I've been having...black outs. Yes, blackouts. Wait, I'm not really sure if it can be considered as black outs. o____O; All I know is that there were days where I can't even remember what I did and how I did things. Taken for instance, a week ago I was working on an experiment for my Experimental Psych laboratory subject and I remember chatting with Rachel as I did it, but I don't remember how I finished it since I've been complaining about a headache that night. So I logged off early, went to bed and when I woke up I remembered NOT finishing the experiment so I rushed to text Rachel and told her to wait for me till I finish it. But she just laughed at me and told me I already finished it, sent it to her and well, pretty much it's all set and ready.

I was...confused, because I totally remember not finishing it, same as me not remembering that I already finished it. Does it make sense? I mean, I know it might just be some case of forgetfulness but it's just...I don't know. And this isn't the only time it happened. It's like I'm on autopilot on something while my brain freakin' shuts down and my body does things that I do on a normal basis. BUT I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING. DDDD8

Rachel said maybe I should ask my professors, or go to the Psych department and have it checked but I don't think it's necessary. Well, at least not till I start killing people without me remembering/knowing. Now, that would be worrisome. =/

- Jun finally approached me. Yes, Jun. Jun my old friend. She left a comment on the latest chapter of 'Dirge in the Beauty', saying she had finished her update and is just waiting for her beta-reader to send it back to her so she can post. I didn't respond at first, seeing as I don't really know what to say. A part of me was glad that she finally stooped down her stupid pride and came to talk to me. Although I know exactly why she's trying to come back to me now that Chuu had dumped her. Or it seemed like she had dumped her because Chuu is on my friends list at Facebook and she would always ramble about her "husband" for whom she really loves, which gave me the notion that they've broken up.

A part of me still doubts her. What is her intention, exactly? Has she matured enough for me to let her back into my life? Or is she just trying to reunite with me so she could go on and treat me like a rubbish bin like she used to? Oh I bet the first thing she'll ramble about would be how she and Chuu broke up, how she broke her heart, how she hated her and the world now blah blah blah and I just...I don't know. I can still write that next chapter, I know I can but generally, I don't think it's still healthy for her and I to do something together, seeing as how she reacted with issues the last time and I just don't want to go through it again, you know?

Apparently, Nadine had been commenting on that same chapter too, trying to make it up to me, I bet. She's acting like she've matured, or so I thought she did that's why I casually commented back since I don't really have any plans of letting her back into my life ever. But something still tells me she hasn't, or perhaps it's just this voice within me that doesn't give out second chances.

I stopped commenting back after a while, since I dont really see the purpose of it anymore. *shrugs*

AND I GUESS THAT'S IT.
Lol sorry if it's quite long and draggy. I don't think anyone will actually read this anyway but the hell. *shrugs* I was thinking of adding the memechirorichan tagged me with some days ago but this entry's been long enough. And I'm still working on that other meme star_jrock tagged me with, but I can't find pictures of Ruki half-nekkid! DDDD8 (much to my dismay, I say) but I just might post it later as well. ^^

ラベル: happy birsday greetings, harhar, shit happens, skewwwl, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Crazy, ehh? Like that's changed. LOL ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: OGRE - the GazettE


Goodmorning, bbs. ♥
I've come to notice that I haven't told you guys about what happened at my friend Carmela's birthday party, yes? Well, the event itself isn't very...eventful, but what we all went through just by going to the party is pretty much an interesting, new experience, per se.

To cut the plausibly long ass, tragic story short; it was a chain of seemingly unending unfortunate events. First, we were dismissed earlier on the seminar, which supposedly is a good thing but at the same time, it made us all agree into the idea of going to my other friend Emiline's house to doll up, which is pretty much the root of all them tragic events that occurred that day.

We were dismissed at two in the afternoon, went to Em's house, prepped for the party till five then it started raining. It was faintly a drizzle at first, something we didn't really consider threatening but after a few more minutes it started to pour down really hard. And since we all have our own umbrellas anyway (well, maybe except for miss careless right here. *points*) we still didn't quite see it bothering. But apparently, and very obviously, we were wrong.

When we got out of Em's house, it was pouring down even harder, which kinda made us all pouty because some of us, if not all, were wearing heels which would be totally ruined because of the rain. But Emiline promised us she'll get us a tricycle so it wasn't really a big deal now, was it?

So we waited for that tricycle she promised, most of us getting impatient after a few more minutes till this one tricycle driver went up to us and said that the tricycle that was supposed to fetch us from Em's house couldn't pass through anymore because of the flood. Yes, flood. Leg-freakin' high of dirty ass water from ditches and drainage and sewage filling the roads. We were all on the verge of tearing up because we practically wasted 4 hours over make-up and hair, only to find out that we wont be able to attend the party at all. But seriously, it gets better.

And no, I haven't even got to the best part. Not even close.
Emiline, feeling remotely responsible, assured us that she'll get someone to fetch us still and that there's still a way out of it. Perplexed, but we trusted her anyways because we can't really do anything about it. But what I didn't know is that the thing she said that was going to fetch us will be a cart. Yes, a cart slash motorcycle with no roofs, no seats and to be able to ride it you're gonna have to hop in and stand all throughout the drive.

So we weren't left with any choice and hopped in, first it was me and Ivy, and motherfuckingshit, I've never experienced something that disastrous in my eighteen years of existence. We were standing all throughout the ride, drenched in the rain with no hands to hold up an umbrella for us because we're pretty much using them to hold ourselves still as the cart moves/shakes/stumbles. We were on the verge of bawling our eyes our, while laughing hysterically and letting out occasional "ahh!"'s and "waaah!"'s.

I seriously thought like I was going to die. ;____;
Good thing though when it was all over, we were rewarded with amazing food from the party. Carmela was laughing at us because we came there drenched and haggard but hey, at least we came. xDDDDD

Seriously, just recalling the events makes me want to fucking slit someone's throat. Ughhhhh. DDDDD8

Anyways, on a much lighter note; I ADOPTED URUHAAAAA!!! 8DDDD

Okay, not literally, but there's this website called Squiby.net wherein you can adopt eggs and eventually they'll...err, grow. You'll have to click them once a day and each click corresponds to one point/level, and certain stages of its growth requires points to be attained. For instance, to be able to have a full grown Uruha, I'm gonna need to reach Level 151.

So for now, here he is.

Click Me!
Adopted from squiby
I named him Shima-chan because he's technically a chibi!Uru. Isn't that the cutest thing? xDDDDD

And I guess this update's been long enough. I should be preparing for school now, something I'm not really excited about. (>__>;) However, I'm pretty excited about doing groceries this afternoon. I've been wanting to make Chicken and Pork teriyaki but I just havent found time. Till now, that is.

See you later, guysss. ♥ ♥ ♥

ラベル: fuckery fuck fuck, shit happens, skewwwl, this is srs bsns, uruduckie♥, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Amused ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Mind cry - TOKAMI

ALAS, EXAMINATION WEEK'S OVARRR.

...Actually, waayyy over. But for some reason the atmosphere's still there since it had been a busy week for me. Reports here and there, ambush presentations and experimental psych paperworks. A friend once told me that hearing the term 'experimental psych' sounds like a pain in the butthole already but lucky for her that her butthole will pretty much stay intact because she's not taking the course. Now, imagine my butth--

Okay, that's gross. Why am I even talking about buttholes? o____O;

Something bittersweet happened concerning school this week though. Bitter, in the sense that our research topic was disapproved. True, it happens all the time but not when we're almost done with a chapter and we're just wrapping it all up. Our professor approached us and said that after a few weeks of musing (it bugs me that took her ages to tell us this.) she arrived at a conclusion that our topic isn't as related to Psychology as we cared to admit. Our topic was Finger Math, which pretty much screams retention and memory and mental set and cognitive psychology, to name a few, and yet the bitch's not even close to satisfied.

I was raging, because she clearly had no idea how hard we've worked on it. Infact, we're almost done with the second chapter and it was natural for case studies to be rejected, yes, but she should've told us way before we started frying our brains over it. Good thing though, she had the decency to extend our due date for the submission, which is a good thing but then again, just when I thought I already got my way out of the stress of doing the first chapter, I was wrong. Now, we're back to square one. *criezzz*

Let's get on the good news now; I GOT THIS REALLY HIGH SCORE IN EXPERIMENTAL PSYCH FOR OUR MAJOR EXAM HAH BLOODY HAH!

I seriously didn't expect it because I don't remember lifting my book and reviewing at all. Okay, maybe I did but I just skimmed through it like I always do, 20 minutes before the actual exam, with gaze's loudest shits blaring through my eardrums. I was surprised. Either I could review better with time pressure and distraction, or I'm just really, really smart. Hahahhaa!

Hopefully this goes on till Finals because I know it'll get alot harder by then. *nods*
And maybe you're asking "Aunt Gracie, how can you even get through everything without losing your mind?"

The answer,kiddos, is shopping. ♥
Andddd...pimping Sebby! xDDDD
Ain't he pretty? LOL I bought that swaroski phonecharm for eighty pesos. Err, more or less two dollars. It's really cute. xDDDDDDD

And oh, since I've been talking about Sebastian a whole lot lately, I might as well give him his own tag. Ahh, maybe Lilith too. She might get jealous. DDD8

And I guess that's it~
Now I shall go and stalk all them journals because I believe I missed quite alot of entries. ;>>>A<<<;

バイバイ！

ラベル: being a happy twat, camwhoring, hah bloody hah, i am that materialistic, sebbyyyy♥, skewwwl, useless worthless babblings