CURRENT MOOD: [ Anxious ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: 十七歳 - the GazettE

Hoooo ha! ^^
Okay, way to start an update. Hummm.

Oh well. Good Morning. ♥

School has started, and it was decent so far. I like all of my professors. Young and fresh, and interesting enough, me thinks. I'm just a little disappointed that my Lit teacher's not as wordy and poetic as I expected, and I think it's actually safe to say that I have a far more vast vocabulary than her *lol gets bricked* but she's not entirely bad. *shrugs*

And uh, I wanted to apologize about that rather morose, comment-locked update the other day. Everything just seemed really heavy for me for the past few days; my brother leaving, Lilith's condition worsening (she actually have two, severely-annoying vertical lines now. DD:) and just...things, really. I used to just laze around the house and try my best to stretch my away-from-the-school moments but for some reason I've been spending lots of times away from home. I'm either wandering around the mall or pestering Rachel's house. I couldn't really point it out, there's just something about being home that makes me royally ticked off.

And yes, I did cut my hair this short. It was pretty before, but far too normal for my taste so I chopped the front off, but didn't touch the back part so it'll look like a mullet. Like, a really weird, really short mullet.

I'm trying my very best to see this on the bright side, really. My brother leaving gives me a better chance of being in Japan, and mom just might give me a new laptop or we can just trade (She has Toshiba, which is pretty cool too) and I can just avoid all the fuckery at home by being at school. I guess I'll just have sit still and be strong till my streak of luck comes back, eh.

In other news, my birthday is in two months! *wejfjsdcbclapsclaps*
I can only ask for three things; Lilith to get better, a paid account, and DIM. ;____;

I don't really know what I could do to get myself a paid account, I think the only way to get it was to have a credit card that I could use but since my sister wont really let me use her friend's card anymore then I guess I'll just have to think of other ways. =/ It's pretty guaranteed to that Lilith will get better, I just want it to be as soon as possible since I'll be needing her for this semester and as for DIM...*sighs* I don't know, really. I'm pretty broke right now and even if I have enough money I wont be able to buy one unless I own a credit card. I really want it, and yes it could be just as easy as a phonecall for Anabelle and ask her to buy it for me but I dont think dad will even let me get to her. DDDD:

Ahh, life sucks.
And...I'm late. LOL

I'll get back to you guys later, ne? ^^

P.S//
I bought a stuffed toy yesterday. And well, I'm not really the stuffed toy kind of person but uh,

I don't know about you guys but he totally reminded me of this really cute, really squishy vocalist. xDDDD

When I saw it I was like :"ekjfhwjhegdjhewdRUKICOOKIE!" and bought it eventhough it's too damn pricey for a second-hand plushie. I just couldn't resist it and and and *insert more keyboard rape hurrr*

P.P.S//

Changed my background music to Juunana Sai by the GazettE. ♥
I honestly adore Without A Trace, but I think this song fits my current state. Except that I'm not seventeen. And I'm not pregnant. And I'm not in Tokyo.

It's just that the lyrics were as miserable as my heart. Hahaha!
And oh, if you feel like digging deeper into the song, here's the translation. It's really pretty. Makes me bawwww all the time. xDDDD

ラベル: camwhoring, fangirlism is the best ism evarrr, fuckery fuck fuck, rukicookiee♥, shit happens, sounds like a plan ehh, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Loling. xDD ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: 十七歳 - the GazettE

I just had this really weird, really random Tora dream. o.O
I can't really remember much, it was rather vague though I do recall us wearing high school uniforms, and we were somehow stuck in this place filled with kids and they were kind of in a morose mood. So he and I came up with something, which sadly I couldn't quite remember but I'm pretty sure it's something that's built, like a construction, just to cheer the little rugrats up.

But just when we got through building whatever it was, it started raining really hard so we panicked and tried almost everything just to save what we built but to no avail, it was ruined. DDDD: So we just danced in the rain and sang our loneliness away and when we got back, we saw Hiroto and Shou, and it was really funny because Pon looked really tan and Shou has this black hair and he looked somewhat alot younger. I was pretty shocked when he came stomping towards me and was like "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!"

...Lol, I guess he gets to play my Oneechan even in my dreams. Hahah! xDDDD

And somehow it just ended there. It was weird enough for me to dream of Tora in a rather innocent, nonsexual way but what's even more weird was the tiny details thrown in there; tanned Pon, young, dark haired Shou, the high school uniforms. It took me a while to register everything when I woke up, but I broke in a mindless, giggling mess anyway. xDDD

I guess this means, he wants me back? BAHAHAHAHA. *gets bricked*

IN OTHERRR NEWS,
OMGZ it's already Thursday! Which means I'll be meeting Gen tomorrow! *dances*
I've been dying to hang out with everyone since summer classes pretty much kept me restrained from everything. Apart from it eating up my time and energy, it was also a massive waste of money on my part since we come there, take those obnoxiously short classes, spend half of my allowance on transportation fare and food, some of it going to the donations thingy they were all demanding us to pay and it just got so troublesome, really. Till now, eventhough those classes were already done, I still keep on drilling my head on what exactly I gained taking those stupid classes.

But oh well. *shrugs*
At least I'd get to go out tomorrow. It'll probably keep things off of my head.

And...I guess that's it.
The redness of my hair is getting more intense and dark btw, which is how I really wanted it to turn out. I don't want to look like a walking stop sign, for christ's sake. (.___. )

Lastly though, I feel like sharing my desktop since it looks really cute. xDDD

made by kuribati of livejournal.

Adorable, aren't they? xDDD
Bawling!Gazeboys is the best thing since dildos and that's trufax, bbs. ♥

And yes, I am soo gonna shut up now. *stuffs fist inside my mouth*

ラベル: bawwww, being a happy twat, fapfapfapfap, gazerock is hardcore love, hah bloody hah, harhar, i creamed, ily, omgyayzzz, sounds like a plan ehh, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings

Omg, I love it so much. *A*
At first I was still a little skeptic about it, thinking it wont be this red because I didn't apply any bleach of sorts which would've helped me brighten up the color but it's still awesome. jdhgfehfvcd!

I have to thank Rachel's mom though because she was able to even it out. It fits me soooo well. *grins and giggles like an idiot* In that picture, it looks a little too bright though since I took it with Lilith's webcam and the windows in my room sucked up the damn sun so pretty much it looks that bright outdoors, while it looks a little subtle indoors. I love how vibrant it looks in that picture, nee. xDDD

And one more good news! Summer classes is ovarrrrr! *glomps everyone in sight*
It should be a good news in general, since I wont have to wake up every damn morning just to attend good-for-nothing classes I dont think I'd even benefit into but hey, it's all over now. And besides, it did helpme save a couple of bucks since I'll be needing alot for all my girldates. Yay~♥

Okay, I'll shut up now. xDDDD

ラベル: being a happy twat, fapfapfapfap, hah bloody hah, harhar, i creamed, omgyayzzz, sounds like a plan ehh, useless worthless babblings, vanity is my favorite sin

CURRENT MOOD: [ Cheerful, at last. xDDD ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Kairos - scRew

YAY I'M FEELING SOO AWESOME.
AWESOME AND GAY. *dances around like a retard*

It's not like nothing had gone wrong today. Infact, my dad was in a yelling fit all day long, proving my theory of him starting his run towards male menopause but I still felt quite amazing. Like, nothing can ever go wrong.

I woke up at around seven and started washing my stuffed toys (no apparent reason, really. They're neither dirty nor stained) I also bathed Torakittie (and I know she probably hates me for that since she haven't been clinging onto me like the usual but whatever. She was soo starting to smell! DDD:) along with many other things. And to make things even more awesome, I bathe them all using my infamous rose-scented bathwash and now, they all smell just like me! *lol is being silly*

After that I started fixing my blog; adding more userpics for my entries, tweaking my cbox (since the previous format is common as fuckkk. =/) and revamping my singingbox code since it stopped playing about a few days ago. Then went to facebook and harassed everyone's wall with my nonsensical quiz results, went to friendster, demanding people to greet me a happy mom's day and lastly, to livejournal, where I had my usual, daily dose of jrock porn. *nods knowingly*

Then during lunch, my dad was out to attend some celebration so I was given the liberty to decide what to eat and of course, I made spaghetti! ♥ Not the common, tasteless ones your mom cooks for you during family days, oh no. *gets brickerd* It was a white sauce spaghetti (or carbonara, if you may) I made with mushroom soup, all purpose cream, cheese and a bottle of beer. Oh joy. xDDD

And pretty much, I just slept the day away. ♥
It wasn't because I was lazing around, but 'cause I got them all covered before lunch even starts. I cleaned the whole house, mop the floor, scrub pee stains on the bathroom floor, fold my clothes and even write up a few words for Delirium (though I doubt there'll be any updates soon). I don't really know what's up with me and why I was feeling and acting all productive but hey, as long as it's fulfilling, I wont complain. ^^

Took a nap, woke up at around 6 and of course, dad starts ranting again about how much of a bum I am, clearly not taking time to look around and see how clean the whole house was. It was aggravating, but since I was feeling specially light and fuzzy all day, nothing was strong enough to bring me down. ♥

And....pretty much the rest is history. I settled infront of my computer and ranted on Rachel about changing my plans with my hair. I was rooting to dye it blue like this, but after getting some advice from Caitlin and being enlightened over the harmful effects of bleach (not that I didn't know. I've bleached my hair before, but not as strong as I'm required too if I end up getting a blue hair) I've decided to change my plans and dye it wine red like this and this instead. It looks pretty awesome still eh? Not as drastic like I wanted it to be, but at least it'll spare me my healthy hair and a sermon from my adviser. *shrugs*

I'll probably get it dyed either tomorrow or Tuesday afternoon. Hopefully I won't have to have it professionally done because I'm seriously broke right now. Blame the girldates I've been engaging myself with. Haha~!

See you later, bitches. ♥

ラベル: being a happy twat, hah bloody hah, harhar, lolwhuuut, sounds like a plan ehh, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings, vanity is my favorite sin

CURRENT MOOD: [ Anxious ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: 十七歳 - the GazettE

Hoooo ha! ^^
Okay, way to start an update. Hummm.

Oh well. Good Morning. ♥

School has started, and it was decent so far. I like all of my professors. Young and fresh, and interesting enough, me thinks. I'm just a little disappointed that my Lit teacher's not as wordy and poetic as I expected, and I think it's actually safe to say that I have a far more vast vocabulary than her *lol gets bricked* but she's not entirely bad. *shrugs*

And uh, I wanted to apologize about that rather morose, comment-locked update the other day. Everything just seemed really heavy for me for the past few days; my brother leaving, Lilith's condition worsening (she actually have two, severely-annoying vertical lines now. DD:) and just...things, really. I used to just laze around the house and try my best to stretch my away-from-the-school moments but for some reason I've been spending lots of times away from home. I'm either wandering around the mall or pestering Rachel's house. I couldn't really point it out, there's just something about being home that makes me royally ticked off.

And yes, I did cut my hair this short. It was pretty before, but far too normal for my taste so I chopped the front off, but didn't touch the back part so it'll look like a mullet. Like, a really weird, really short mullet.

I'm trying my very best to see this on the bright side, really. My brother leaving gives me a better chance of being in Japan, and mom just might give me a new laptop or we can just trade (She has Toshiba, which is pretty cool too) and I can just avoid all the fuckery at home by being at school. I guess I'll just have sit still and be strong till my streak of luck comes back, eh.

In other news, my birthday is in two months! *wejfjsdcbclapsclaps*
I can only ask for three things; Lilith to get better, a paid account, and DIM. ;____;

I don't really know what I could do to get myself a paid account, I think the only way to get it was to have a credit card that I could use but since my sister wont really let me use her friend's card anymore then I guess I'll just have to think of other ways. =/ It's pretty guaranteed to that Lilith will get better, I just want it to be as soon as possible since I'll be needing her for this semester and as for DIM...*sighs* I don't know, really. I'm pretty broke right now and even if I have enough money I wont be able to buy one unless I own a credit card. I really want it, and yes it could be just as easy as a phonecall for Anabelle and ask her to buy it for me but I dont think dad will even let me get to her. DDDD:

Ahh, life sucks.
And...I'm late. LOL

I'll get back to you guys later, ne? ^^

P.S//
I bought a stuffed toy yesterday. And well, I'm not really the stuffed toy kind of person but uh,

I don't know about you guys but he totally reminded me of this really cute, really squishy vocalist. xDDDD

When I saw it I was like :"ekjfhwjhegdjhewdRUKICOOKIE!" and bought it eventhough it's too damn pricey for a second-hand plushie. I just couldn't resist it and and and *insert more keyboard rape hurrr*

P.P.S//

Changed my background music to Juunana Sai by the GazettE. ♥
I honestly adore Without A Trace, but I think this song fits my current state. Except that I'm not seventeen. And I'm not pregnant. And I'm not in Tokyo.

It's just that the lyrics were as miserable as my heart. Hahaha!
And oh, if you feel like digging deeper into the song, here's the translation. It's really pretty. Makes me bawwww all the time. xDDDD

ラベル: camwhoring, fangirlism is the best ism evarrr, fuckery fuck fuck, rukicookiee♥, shit happens, sounds like a plan ehh, useless worthless babblings

CURRENT MOOD: [ Loling. xDD ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: 十七歳 - the GazettE

I just had this really weird, really random Tora dream. o.O
I can't really remember much, it was rather vague though I do recall us wearing high school uniforms, and we were somehow stuck in this place filled with kids and they were kind of in a morose mood. So he and I came up with something, which sadly I couldn't quite remember but I'm pretty sure it's something that's built, like a construction, just to cheer the little rugrats up.

But just when we got through building whatever it was, it started raining really hard so we panicked and tried almost everything just to save what we built but to no avail, it was ruined. DDDD: So we just danced in the rain and sang our loneliness away and when we got back, we saw Hiroto and Shou, and it was really funny because Pon looked really tan and Shou has this black hair and he looked somewhat alot younger. I was pretty shocked when he came stomping towards me and was like "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!"

...Lol, I guess he gets to play my Oneechan even in my dreams. Hahah! xDDDD

And somehow it just ended there. It was weird enough for me to dream of Tora in a rather innocent, nonsexual way but what's even more weird was the tiny details thrown in there; tanned Pon, young, dark haired Shou, the high school uniforms. It took me a while to register everything when I woke up, but I broke in a mindless, giggling mess anyway. xDDD

I guess this means, he wants me back? BAHAHAHAHA. *gets bricked*

IN OTHERRR NEWS,
OMGZ it's already Thursday! Which means I'll be meeting Gen tomorrow! *dances*
I've been dying to hang out with everyone since summer classes pretty much kept me restrained from everything. Apart from it eating up my time and energy, it was also a massive waste of money on my part since we come there, take those obnoxiously short classes, spend half of my allowance on transportation fare and food, some of it going to the donations thingy they were all demanding us to pay and it just got so troublesome, really. Till now, eventhough those classes were already done, I still keep on drilling my head on what exactly I gained taking those stupid classes.

But oh well. *shrugs*
At least I'd get to go out tomorrow. It'll probably keep things off of my head.

And...I guess that's it.
The redness of my hair is getting more intense and dark btw, which is how I really wanted it to turn out. I don't want to look like a walking stop sign, for christ's sake. (.___. )

Lastly though, I feel like sharing my desktop since it looks really cute. xDDD

made by kuribati of livejournal.

Adorable, aren't they? xDDD
Bawling!Gazeboys is the best thing since dildos and that's trufax, bbs. ♥

And yes, I am soo gonna shut up now. *stuffs fist inside my mouth*

ラベル: bawwww, being a happy twat, fapfapfapfap, gazerock is hardcore love, hah bloody hah, harhar, i creamed, ily, omgyayzzz, sounds like a plan ehh, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings

Omg, I love it so much. *A*
At first I was still a little skeptic about it, thinking it wont be this red because I didn't apply any bleach of sorts which would've helped me brighten up the color but it's still awesome. jdhgfehfvcd!

I have to thank Rachel's mom though because she was able to even it out. It fits me soooo well. *grins and giggles like an idiot* In that picture, it looks a little too bright though since I took it with Lilith's webcam and the windows in my room sucked up the damn sun so pretty much it looks that bright outdoors, while it looks a little subtle indoors. I love how vibrant it looks in that picture, nee. xDDD

And one more good news! Summer classes is ovarrrrr! *glomps everyone in sight*
It should be a good news in general, since I wont have to wake up every damn morning just to attend good-for-nothing classes I dont think I'd even benefit into but hey, it's all over now. And besides, it did helpme save a couple of bucks since I'll be needing alot for all my girldates. Yay~♥

Okay, I'll shut up now. xDDDD

ラベル: being a happy twat, fapfapfapfap, hah bloody hah, harhar, i creamed, omgyayzzz, sounds like a plan ehh, useless worthless babblings, vanity is my favorite sin

CURRENT MOOD: [ Cheerful, at last. xDDD ]
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Kairos - scRew

YAY I'M FEELING SOO AWESOME.
AWESOME AND GAY. *dances around like a retard*

It's not like nothing had gone wrong today. Infact, my dad was in a yelling fit all day long, proving my theory of him starting his run towards male menopause but I still felt quite amazing. Like, nothing can ever go wrong.

I woke up at around seven and started washing my stuffed toys (no apparent reason, really. They're neither dirty nor stained) I also bathed Torakittie (and I know she probably hates me for that since she haven't been clinging onto me like the usual but whatever. She was soo starting to smell! DDD:) along with many other things. And to make things even more awesome, I bathe them all using my infamous rose-scented bathwash and now, they all smell just like me! *lol is being silly*

After that I started fixing my blog; adding more userpics for my entries, tweaking my cbox (since the previous format is common as fuckkk. =/) and revamping my singingbox code since it stopped playing about a few days ago. Then went to facebook and harassed everyone's wall with my nonsensical quiz results, went to friendster, demanding people to greet me a happy mom's day and lastly, to livejournal, where I had my usual, daily dose of jrock porn. *nods knowingly*

Then during lunch, my dad was out to attend some celebration so I was given the liberty to decide what to eat and of course, I made spaghetti! ♥ Not the common, tasteless ones your mom cooks for you during family days, oh no. *gets brickerd* It was a white sauce spaghetti (or carbonara, if you may) I made with mushroom soup, all purpose cream, cheese and a bottle of beer. Oh joy. xDDD

And pretty much, I just slept the day away. ♥
It wasn't because I was lazing around, but 'cause I got them all covered before lunch even starts. I cleaned the whole house, mop the floor, scrub pee stains on the bathroom floor, fold my clothes and even write up a few words for Delirium (though I doubt there'll be any updates soon). I don't really know what's up with me and why I was feeling and acting all productive but hey, as long as it's fulfilling, I wont complain. ^^

Took a nap, woke up at around 6 and of course, dad starts ranting again about how much of a bum I am, clearly not taking time to look around and see how clean the whole house was. It was aggravating, but since I was feeling specially light and fuzzy all day, nothing was strong enough to bring me down. ♥

And....pretty much the rest is history. I settled infront of my computer and ranted on Rachel about changing my plans with my hair. I was rooting to dye it blue like this, but after getting some advice from Caitlin and being enlightened over the harmful effects of bleach (not that I didn't know. I've bleached my hair before, but not as strong as I'm required too if I end up getting a blue hair) I've decided to change my plans and dye it wine red like this and this instead. It looks pretty awesome still eh? Not as drastic like I wanted it to be, but at least it'll spare me my healthy hair and a sermon from my adviser. *shrugs*

I'll probably get it dyed either tomorrow or Tuesday afternoon. Hopefully I won't have to have it professionally done because I'm seriously broke right now. Blame the girldates I've been engaging myself with. Haha~!

See you later, bitches. ♥

ラベル: being a happy twat, hah bloody hah, harhar, lolwhuuut, sounds like a plan ehh, this is srs bsns, useless worthless babblings, vanity is my favorite sin